Update!!!!

1) Upset by Elections and enormous amt of Boredom in IPL…’

2) Exams like IES and Civil Services, which went pathetically bad…

3) A conundrum of Spiritual, Emotional and Material status of my Mind.

4) And mainly, my pathetic typing Skills, and impatience to key in those letters…

All these have Pushed me into a temporary Blogger sanyas….

So I shall post a brief update of the April and May… Before I try to get on with usual nonsense… Not that an update matters, but just it makes this particular post lengthy enough to suffice the literary void suffered in the last 2 months …

April... Glutton is Threaded!!

I got my Brahmin's Tag this April, in the presence of a handful of relatives and friends (my father's), at a century old temple in the heart of Bangalore... Nice temple to visit for devotees of lord krishna.. That's the max.. expressive i can get... I'm really bad at descriptive answers, u can check my academics for that matter... I have been writing a travelogue ever since i returned from the north India trip... I've not moved forward from the Bangalore city railway station, the point from where we set out on almost a month long trip....

Coming to the Upanayam, The ceremony in itself was a huge embarrassment, that there were some not so comfortable rituals, added to that I was found answering the Common Question around " MUNJI INNU AGILLVA, yaake isthu lateuuu???", with a look pointing towards my dad, and for somewho took the liberty of preaching me the ethos and rational behind UPANAYAM and SANDHYA VANDHANAM, and the IMPORTANCE of doing Sandhyavandhane every day.., I kept nodding every time a Senior Brahmin, passed on this LEGEND of GAYATHRI, and finally an assurance of "Dinaa, madthini... " put them to calm... a whole lot of APRIL was engrossed either in the prelude or Aftermath of this ceremony...

Coming to the most agonising part of the whole episode, A restriction on my dietary exercise... "NO outside food, No onion, Not more than 2 meals a day,... etc, etc" I was shocked by the level of selective Orthodoxy my Mom imposed on me, what came as a small relief was that, the rule wud be applicable for the 1st 16 days of my brahmacharya.... still there are certain restrictions on rice related issues, but i'm getting used them....

X-AM ayhem...

In May I wrote the CS-prelims, with engg as an optional subject... It went on so well that i finshed the entire paper in the first 30 odd mins... of the 120 mins that been allotted... as I rued over the prelims exams, I found a new reason to cry upon, this it was the IES exams, "GOD ITS KILLING ME "... were the words that lingered in my ears when i happened to face this Exam, the objective papers were by themselves torturous, but what came as the final nail in the coffin was, the descriptive papers I & II... Yeah, 2 back to back papers based on entire 8 semesters of Engg.. in 6 hours... I never expected that, engg wud get back to me so hard and fast, and disturbingly furious.... As i nurse these wounds, I've got a couple of bank exams to rub salt with... moving into JUNE, my BirtH MONTH...

Coming to the actual, reason that brought me to the blog... The following line, as always fathomed before that final few mins, before i actually slipaway into slumber....

Failure Questions, but Success never Really Answers…

For a couple of days I have been rambling over this piece of line, that’s intrigued my grey cells. When I really came to think that life’s a journey through the unknowns, I thought it was a one-way process; little did I know then that one-ways too end up at a dead end or a junction.

A phrase I picked up from my friend’s status msg… “quarter life Crisis” is an Apt Idiom, that puts one’s perception of life and its purpose into tantrums, in every quarter there seems to be a new beginning and an unknown ending.As u get busy planning and working for the next quarter, half way thru with the present quarter u would've either steered away from ur plan or u wud've meddled with the dimensions by leaps and bounds.

The last 5 years of this first quarter of life is the haziest and can be alarmingly fragile if they are confronted with questions; or tinkered by various external and internal agents that play upon the psyche. These 5 years define ur perception of life and the path that affirms you living it successfully. Many a times we end up being pre-judgmental or indecisive of life and success,…

Success never really gives us the chance to question or introspect it…. But we are forced to draw out a reason for a Failure. We fail to accept that it is the cumulative effect that drives success or failure in equal proportions.