This blog is just an afterthought/ after-effect of watching the movie “Fight Club”. More specifically a dialogue in the movie – “If I could wake up in a different place, at a different time, could I wake up as a different person?” Pondering over that line, I have been wondering if there’s another side to me, a person whom I fight to keep confined in the steely wraps of my sub-conscious mind. Who is waiting to make me a conscious less slave of his? And I found, there is one, probably not as dominant and adventurous as Tyler Durden, but I feel I’m indeed fighting to keep the other person bound to an image/perception of me by the society by exerting my conscious dominion over my thoughts, activities and responses to match or fit with the rest of herd.
As an example to such nature: I’m not much of a people's person, I really am not overly disturbed by the atrocities and pains of the world, the suicides, homicides, earthquakes, tsunamis and other humanly miseries, I am not consciously disturbed or not really empathizing with those people or problems (off course, I do feel for the them and do help in ways possible and extendable by me to those who are in need) but also I do not openly refute or fight the discomfort and pain cause by the people or environment around me. I endure both the sides consciously and as politely and patiently until a threshold is breached. Once that equilibrium is disturbed I’m an unsavory brute or a comatose cringing in his deeply scarred limbo.
Most of us are troubled, juggling between being the person that they are and the person they have to be/become due to the environment around them, struggling to strike the perfect equilibrium between the conscious and sub-conscious, the civilian that is marching consciously in harmony with the herd, and the beast prancing in the wilderness of the sub-conscious. And I feel we oppress and abuse our subconscious way too much than we realize and also more than actually we intend to. How do we find that sweet spot of be who we actually are, the combination of our conscious and sub-conscious self, and also keep the people around us just as happy as we are while we are prancing in the wilderness of the sub-conscious.
As an example to such nature: I’m not much of a people's person, I really am not overly disturbed by the atrocities and pains of the world, the suicides, homicides, earthquakes, tsunamis and other humanly miseries, I am not consciously disturbed or not really empathizing with those people or problems (off course, I do feel for the them and do help in ways possible and extendable by me to those who are in need) but also I do not openly refute or fight the discomfort and pain cause by the people or environment around me. I endure both the sides consciously and as politely and patiently until a threshold is breached. Once that equilibrium is disturbed I’m an unsavory brute or a comatose cringing in his deeply scarred limbo.
Most of us are troubled, juggling between being the person that they are and the person they have to be/become due to the environment around them, struggling to strike the perfect equilibrium between the conscious and sub-conscious, the civilian that is marching consciously in harmony with the herd, and the beast prancing in the wilderness of the sub-conscious. And I feel we oppress and abuse our subconscious way too much than we realize and also more than actually we intend to. How do we find that sweet spot of be who we actually are, the combination of our conscious and sub-conscious self, and also keep the people around us just as happy as we are while we are prancing in the wilderness of the sub-conscious.
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